Thursday, December 2, 2010

Spread love not lies!

Right now, I am sleep deprived and emotionally drained. I seriously don't know how much more of this I can take, but I am NOT going to give up.

Last night, I confronted the person that was spreading lies about me. I wasn't mean, I was lighthearted about the whole thing. I simply said, "Hey *so-and-so* can you tell me about this list that I have?" (Since I have no idea about this list that I supposedly have been keeping with people's mistakes and faults on it so I can turn it in to my boss.) So-and-so turned on me, raised her voice and said, "Don't even go there! I started my day with this and I don't want to end it with this! Don't talk to me!"

It took everything in me not to raise my voice, "But I would like to know, what you are talking about and why you are telling people these things."

so she says, still with a raised voice. "No! I don't want to tell you because you have been spreading lies about me." All of this was said without her looking at me in the eye and without me even raising my voice.

I turned around in my chair and tried to hide the fact that I was crying. Mainly, because I was so angry, but also because I was extremely hurt.  Luckily, the person I was relieving was there and suggested we go check the rooms. So we went clear back to the very last room and I cried.  I HATE crying  in front of people and I hate the fact that i cry when I am angry. I spent most of my work night crying. My blood pressure was extremely high and the girls we afraid that I would pass out.  I just reassured them that I was fine and went on about my work.

Now, I am about to start my 12 hour shift and I am just praying that I can remain strong and show that I am the bigger person.

P.s. I am so sorry for the lack of positivity lately. Its been kind of hard to stay so positive during this ordeal, but I know I will pull through it and bounce back.



Ms. Megan said...

You are such a beautiful and kind person and I am so sorry that there are people in the world who say and do mean things to nice people. I know how hard it is to be the bigger person and I know that seeing the silver lining is not always possible. But I know that everything will be okay!!!!! Just keep being your beautifully positive self and have a smile on your pretty face.
Everything always turns out good in the end.
Sending you lots of love,

amylou said...

I'm the same way. I cry when I'm mad too. Just ignore her as much as u can Hun! She is so not worth it! I'm here if u need to chat! Just send me an email girl! You are an amazing and beautiful person!

amylou said...

giveaway is up sweet girl!
I wish you could enter but I will have one that you can enter next time!
But go check out your interview! I think it makes you look snazzy!

Mandy said...

Ugh, just awful. Hugs to you!


bebe bird beck said...

Aw. I'm so sorry you are having a rough time at work. It will all pass soon, I hope! I cry when I'm angry too, and it makes me even more mad.
Maybe since you confronted the situation it will die down!

- also, I got your package in the mail today and it made my day.
I had a sorta rough night/morning and then that put the biggest smile on my face. thank you so so much. I just love the matching headband too, you talented lady.

Trains and Sewing Machines said...

That sounds really frustrating! Good for you for being the bigger person though!!! That is not easy to do. Hope everything works itself out :)

Drama queens mum (Kimberly) said...

I'm sorry that you are going through this. I'm a sahm now & I totally don't miss all of the drama that goes along with working.

Vic said...

First and formost hold your head high always {i know you do} but don't ever let a bitch think she runs the show...starting bull shit bologna is for sloths. If she and you speak again and she doesn't look you in the eye...whatever she says...say okay SLOTH. You have to learn how to be sarcastic with skanky bitches....yep the bitch who's boss

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